Bread in the AM, Meat in the PM!

Trying to join Propher Jolynne Whittaker in the “UNTIL YOU BLESS ME FAST”!

Lord I need your direction every step of the way. Help me oh lord to understand and execute your will in my life. Allow me to submit to those things I must go through in order to draw out your oil within me. Break me for the Glory of the Lord Ana for the Glory of the Lord alone ABBA!

May your will be done in my life and through my life in Jesus mighty name amen amen amen

Lord direct me as to what you want me to eat on this fast, what you want me to refrain from on this fast, I give you space & time to speak – reveal your will to me lord Jesus mighty name amen amen amen!!! 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

So the Lord brought me to exodus for Bible study today which I do not believe is happenstance. As I believe I am on the brink of a major breakthrough in my life, I feel it I believe it, I receive it, I declare and I decree it in Jesus mighty name -by the power of the Holy Spirit alone amen amen amen

thank you ABBA!!!

When asking what I could eat the Lord reminds me of the exodus passage. And Lo and behold I have manna bread in the freezer!

So i discern that He releases me to eat that bread and I cut off a quick bite. Then I add a fully fresh juiced cold breaker from the neighborhood Lazy Acres and feel empowered in my gut! Praise Jehovah he will answer our prayers, so we must remember to give him praise!

Lord help me at all times to remember you in all I do and in all that I seek amen amen amen!



The end of the day was awesome! To explain why the end was so very awesome, I first have to tell you that the enemy came for me this morning! Tried to get my whole day off track. Got my whole nervous system up in a roar, trying to mess with your girl. While I was initially triggered, I was able to maintain a level head, remind him that the LORD rebukes him and laugh at his attempt to get me out of faith! I reminded him that even if he thought he had got in a good shot, my ABBA DADDY WINS IN THE END ANYWAY and HE would work it out -hey hey! Oh how blessed my soul was to rest in that truth. I don’t have to do anything. Wait, I do need to repent – which i did – asking for forgiveness for those sins that I knew of, was unsure or absolutely just did not know! Then I was able to rest in the fact that my ABBA DADDY would rush to the rescue and handle the battle for me! I just had to stand and praise HIM, GLORY TO HIS NAME FOREVER AND EVER AMEN!

So first, he resolved the attack on me in the am, then I got a call from a friend in jail mid day and we talked away about revelations that he had be receiving from GOD, along with actually Revelations prophecy. We effectively edified one another and confirmed some things for one another. He told me things that confirmed that GOD was answering prayers that I had prayed over him, and it overjoyed my heart!

Later in the day, I had a visit with a friend who no longer lives in Long Beach. While we were catching up, it was revealed to me that she has the exact skill set I need to turn my program into a curriculum training! Praise God. I’ve been praying to the LORD – ok ok, I’ve been complaining to the LORD that I had the desire, the will, but not the skill to execute a training program! I did not even know where to start! Well praise GOD I don’t have to because Rachel does! Whoop Whoop! Doing my little praise jig!

This is BIG! I have been praying over this vision FOR YEARS! Working hard toward it and its funny because I literally felt as if the LORD told me to rest in this season! hahaha! Talk about a confirming word! He needed me to rest, to get in his word – get his water- and shift from the last traces of past complex traumas, so that I’m ready to step into the land and TAKE THE TERRITORY! I BELIEVE IT, I RECEIVE IT, I DECLARE AND I DECREE IT, IN JESUS MIGHTY NAME AMEN AMEN AMEN!!! I have so many hopes of impacting my community for the good and it all starts by bringing understanding and hope back to the individual in society. Using conflict resolution tools geared toward the internal conflicts we all have, but beginning with our children! I am beyond juiced and see HIS hand all over this!

Lastly, there are some very exciting things brewing on the FBNPLAY home-front that has me hooping and hollering in the spirit as well! I see elevation, business and community recognition, released financial flow and investor support coming our way! IN THE MIGHT NAME OF JESUS AMEN AMEN AMEN – YeahYEAH!

So all in all it was a great day and I see things breaking and shifting in the spirit! The enemy has no power here, all PRAISE BELONGS TO YAHWEH and HE will receive it! To this I say, YES AND AMEN and bring on more ABBA! IM READY by the power of the HOLY SPIRIT alone! #amenamenamen #slavegirlroyalwalk


It’s Exodus Time!

Bible study revelations in Exodus today.

I have to admit that I have grumbled against the LORD, feeling like I’ve waited FOREVER for WHATEVER it is HE is doing in my life. So I decided to join Prophet Jolynne Whittakers ( “UNTIL YOU BLESS ME FAST’ because I felt led to struggle for mines with the LORD. Jacob DID NOT LET GOD GO UNTIL HE BLESSED HIM! I waiver often but I feel on the brink of something great in the spirit, and I wanted to FIGHT for it in submission to God!

Man, this first day was somewhat harder because I wanted to do what He wanted me to do. Not just pick the quickest or even the most convenient fast that I am able to sustain in my own ability. Today I did not eat for the first half of the day because I wanted HIM to lead me. I wanted HIS direction.

Some time around 1 or 2ish, I was reading the bible in a year word plan with my Mother from Youversion’s Bible plan. In todays lesson plan, it taught out of Exodus. Something in the scriptures jumped out at me. This caused me to go back to Exodus to read more once our plan reading was over. This is the scripture the LORD gave me!

“Moses also said, “You will know that it was the LORD when he gives you meat to eat in the evening and all the bread you want in the morning, because he has heard your grumbling against him. Who are we? You are not grumbling against us, but against the LORD.” “I have heard the grumbling of the Israelites. Tell them, ‘At twilight you will eat meat, and in the morning you will be filled with bread. Then you will know that I am the LORD your God.’ ” Exodus‬ ‭16:6-12, ‭NIV snippets‬‬

I had been asking for direction all day and scripture concerning Bread in the morning (AM) and meat in the (PM) lept out at me. Finally! I know it may not seem like much to you, but it was God ordained to me. I refused to do anything, until HE directed me. I wanted what HE had for me, so I needed HIM to show me what to do. In HIS omnipotent foresight, I had bought extra Manna bread for a previous fast, and had stored in the freezer. To be honest, I had forgotten all about it…until I read this scripture! To God be the Glory. So I was able to cut myself a small piece of bread and cut my hunger sometime around midday. I was overjoyed about this. Here it was, I’d been asking the Lord to provide and He did, right out of my own kitchen!

This is significant because many times when I plan to fast, I have to go out and get a host of new things to eat. It’s costly, time consuming and can be a bit overwhelming for someone like me. I need to know how Im going to do EV-ERY-THANG!!! How the process is going to go, how I’m going to cut and store the veggies, whats the day breakdown of food, food protocol has to be in place before the fast or I will fail epically and very quickly. If the word control freak comes to mind, you are not wrong – but i digress – for everything I needed to be in T.H.I.S. house….it was a miracle for me! As minor as it might seem to you, there are no minor miracles in my book. My God provided and because HE knows and loves me, he prearranged for what I needed at this time to be here when I was ready to submit this last effort to please and entreat HIM. HE was showing me that HE can do my life way better than I can. Its a lesson I swear I’ve learned a hundred times over…yet I somehow seem to always quickly forget it again. But Praise JEHOVAH, simply letting HIM guide this day was so much easier, even if there was some major sacrifice up front! ….After some bread, and some praise and worship, I went back to the Word.

“This is what the LORD has commanded: ‘Everyone is to gather as much as they need. Take an omer for each person you have in your tent.’  The Israelites did as they were told”…                                                        And when they measured it by the omer, the one who gathered much did not have too much, and the one who gathered little did not have too little. Everyone had gathered just as much as thy needed.

Then Moses said to them, “No one is to keep any of it until morning.”

However, some of them paid no attention to Moses; they kept part of it until morning, but it was full of maggots and began to smell. So Moses was angry with them. Exodus‬ ‭16:16-20 NIV‬‬

These verses spoke to me because it addressed an issue of lack that has been prevalent in my life. I can legitimately say that I had begun some hoarding tendencies in late 20’s that the LORD revealed to me in my brokenness. In this scripture, the LORD is reminding me that not only can HE, but HE will manage my day to day needs. He has proved this to me over and over again and today he put an emphasis on it! I run this Mahoganiejewel! I AM does NOT need your help!

It’s also interesting to note that in the above scriptures, when the Israealites listened to the word of the LORD, things went well. Each house had what they needed. When they did not listen, the things they tried to hoard ended up smelly infested with maggots AND it caused dissension, inflaming their leader to anger. Can anyone say MESSAGE! Do as HE says and all will be well, don’t do it and all WILL NOT BE WELL WITH YOU!

I also think this word (vs18) speaks to greed. As long as we take just what we need, we will all have enough.

“He said to them, “This is what the Lord commanded: ‘Tomorrow is to be a day of sabbath rest, a holy sabbath to the Lord. So bake what you want to bake and boil what you want to boil. Save whatever is left and keep it until morning.’ ”” Nevertheless, some of the people went out on the seventh day to gather it, but they found none. Then the Lord said to Moses, “How long will you refuse to keep my commands and my instructions?” Exodus‬ ‭16:23-28‬ ‭NIV‬‬ snippets‬‬

I felt the LORD saying to me in these verses that HIS instructions are made readily available to us, you need only to open the word of God. Many times I’ve moaned about not hearing from God and not understanding what HE wants me to do, yet never thinking to crack open this book called the bible. Which I’ve heard aptly acronym’ed as B.I.B.L.E – basic instructions before leaving earth! He literally outlines the everything we need to know in here, yet we humans are continuously ignoring the directions HE gives us. Read the Word, nevertheless HIS holy people prostitute themselves with worldly concerns and pursuits instead!

“The Israelites ate manna forty years, until they came to a land that was settled; they ate manna until they reached the border of Canaan.” Exodus‬ ‭16:35‬ ‭NIV‬‬

I turned 40 this past October and have been feeling like I’m on the brink of transitioning to a new season for the last few months. So, I find it very interesting that the Israelites were in the wilderness for 40 years and that they ate manna that entire time – before reaching the border of Canaan.

I feel the LORD revealing that I just like the Israelites the I have been in the wilderness for 40 years. HE had to work out past trauma, pain, anger, even my nervous system response…pretty much HE had to do for me what HE did for the Israelites, yet ALL THE WHILE, HE has provided for me! He never left my side (like the cloud that went before and behind God’s people through the desert) and manna (provision, grace, HIS love and forgiveness) has always appeared for me.

“The whole Israelite community set out from the Desert of Sin, traveling from place to place as the Lord commanded. They camped at Rephidim but there was no water for the people to drink.” Exodus‬ ‭17:1‬ ‭NIV‬‬

I loved how the community AS A WHOLE set out from the Desert of Sin! I declare and decree that God’s people are coming out of the desert of Sin IN UNITY, AS A CONNECTED COMMUNITY by the mighty name of Jesus, amen amen amen!

Here it mentions that they came to and camped at a place called Rephidim, which literally means rest or stays, YET they had no water to drink. I now understand that God wants us to drink of the well of his truth as often as possible, and HE represents himself as the living water frequently throughout scripture. So I sense that this verse may be alluding to the fact that while they came to a resting place, it was not a place for them to camp out. This place, which seemed to come right before breakthrough, may have seemed nice and comfortable – enjoyable even – was not a place the LORD wanted them to settle in, thus no resources to sustain them living there!

The absence of water could also signify that they had to PREPARE to come higher in their walk with Christ because the obstacles in the promised land were going to require every bit of faith they had! Giants would be in the land they were inheriting and they had to be strong enough in mind and heart to advance on those squatters!

Nevertheless, it should have highlighted to them their changing relationship with God. Israel had depended on God, yet complained all the while. They were infants still needing signs and miracles to speak to their fears and soften their cries. If they were to step into the promise land, their mental outlook had to shift. They had to grow up! They could not take the victimhood mentality they previously lived with into the promise land, otherwise they would taint it!

“He said, “Because hands were lifted up against the throne of the Lord, the Lord will be at war against the Amalekites from generation to generation.”” ‭‭Exodus‬ ‭17:16‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Amalekites were considered enemies of the Israelites. So I take this passage to mean that the LORD will be at war with the enemies of God’s people from generation to generation! We do NOT have to war alone. It’s not even our fight! All we are expected to do it STAND and DECLARE THE WORD OF THE LORD….and the enemy is DEFEATED IN JESUS NAME AMEN AMEN AMEN!

If any thing, we should remember during difficulties, that the enemy of our souls is not necessarily fighting us, he may be attacking us, but ultimately he is attacking GOD. Since he can not stand up to, and knows he will lose any battle with the LORD, he instead makes war on God’s beloveds.

So when you are attacked, remind the enemy, that its ok. You don’t fight your battles anyway, the LORD YOU GOD does and HE WHO REIGNS WILL WIN IT ALL!!! This should settle your spirit as well as cause the devil to flee as you stand on the word of GOD!

You are MY Black History

Norman Arthur La Franks, YOU ARE MY BLACK HISTORY… and I remember you…

 The years has flown since your passing, but today on your born day, I want to honor the memory of you. 

Through you – through your journey – a way was made for me and my own journey.  I thank you for the impact you had on my life.  Some good and some very sad, yet I appreciate all of it. It laid the foundation that eventually lead me to Christ.  

I thank God for you.  While you were an imperfect human being, the family told me how outgoing and personable you were. They said you were awesome at entertaining the crowd. You were great at stories, …you spun fabulous tales of fantasy for the enjoyment of those around you….and sometimes even for your personal benefit.  They told me, I chained smoked like you use to.  Lighting one cig up with another before the first was finished.  It’s amazing the traits that are passed down simply through genes.
Yet, I thank God that I got some of my best traits from you, my smile, my personality, my humor, & my entertaining spirit.  I praise God that I learned to stick to the truth in your absence, and have known God’s grace through His breaking my addiction to nicotine.

As an adult, I understand more fully now the strength of some of your struggles, your weaknesses and even your fears.  I’ve lived long enough to know now how hard it is to fight against the savage events of life.  To stay afloat consistently, while drowning endlessly.

 I can only imagine what you went through, the pain and heartaches; what lead fantasy to become your best friend, what lead you to run from your responsibilities.  When I was young I was angry, and I hated you.  I hated your weakness and your fear.  This lead me to hate my own weaknesses and fears….Having a more seasoned understanding from experiencing this life myself, I now am keenly aware that this world was not built for you, was not kind to you, and did not love you the way you may have needed it to.  I understand more fully how crippled it may have left you.  If no one ever said this to you in life, I apologize for the cruelty of this world.  I ask for your forgiveness for being so unforgiving for the majority of my life.  I love you and praise God that I was able to tell you that multiple times before you died.

Again, I love you, I forgive you, and pray I see you at heaven’s gate.

Song of the day: Sevin – Surrender, Purple Heart Album


My mother and I started the Daniel Fast on January 2. I can not tell you how awesome I felt that i was able to pre-prep and do a little shopping Jan 1 and felt totally awesome since I had all we needed to begin on January 2. Well let me tell you how quickly my joy has turned into frustration. We are definitely both doing good with the food, but what I’ve found 2 days in is that I am EXTRA IRRITATED.

I know, I know irritation can be expected when fasting – especially when yu did not pre plan far enough ahead to drink a gallon o water a day for a week prior to the fast to help clear out your system – but I was really thinking that because I have done this before that it would somehow be easier this time around! THIS WAS NOT THE CASE. sigh.

Anyhoo, I plan on sharing my thoughts from the 21 Day devotional, as a way to ensure that I blog daily, as well as to share what my goals are for this next year. Somewhat using this blog space as a means of keeping myself accountable for what I want out of 2019!

Well, be blessed and know that Jesus Christ loves you!

Toodles my noodles!!!

Happy New Year!!!

Isaiah 43:19 (NIV) 19 See, I am doing a new thing!
    Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
    and streams in the wasteland.I

The new year always seems to allow for a ton of hope. For me this has not always been the case. But this year holds extreme promise. Everywhere I turn I keep hearing that the word of the Lord is that restoration is coming. A new thing, a new thing is coming, praise God a new thing!

The Lord is going to give us beauty for ashes this year! I don’t know about ya’ll, but I am EXTREMELY excited to see the Lord come through with this promise THIS year! I am ready for all that the enemy stole and I’m ready to achieve even more than I ever believed I could!!! With Christ all things are possible!

Since this was a late or rather very early morning post, I’m gonna let you go. Just know, GREAT THINGS ARE COMING BELOVEDS!!!

XOXOXO, Toodles my noodles!

Water into Wine

JOHN 2: 1 On the third day a wedding took place at Cana in Galilee. Jesus’ mother was there, and Jesus and his disciples had also been invited to the wedding. When the wine was gone, Jesus’ mother said to him, “They have no more wine.”

“Woman,[a] why do you involve me?” Jesus replied. “My hour has not yet come.”

His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.”

Nearby stood six stone water jars, the kind used by the Jews for ceremonial washing, each holding from twenty to thirty gallons.[b]

Jesus said to the servants, “Fill the jars with water”; so they filled them to the brim.

Then he told them, “Now draw some out and take it to the master of the banquet.”

They did so, and the master of the banquet tasted the water that had been turned into wine. He did not realize where it had come from, though the servants who had drawn the water knew. Then he called the bridegroom aside 10 and said, “Everyone brings out the choice wine first and then the cheaper wine after the guests have had too much to drink; but you have saved the best till now.”

11 What Jesus did here in Cana of Galilee was the first of the signs through which he revealed his glory; and his disciples believed in him.


Turning water into wine.  Most of the time when I hear this passage, its being utilized as a scriptural OUT for those conversations with “the Churchiest” christians who may -or may not- lean a bit too legalistic.  Don’t get me wrong, I’ve used it myself a time or two, simply to give myself permission to kick it a lil bit!  I especially dwelt over this scripture to decipher whether my two drink max was sufficiently christ-like, when out and about with friends.  But I’m not really here to discuss the semantics of whether christians should drink or not.

[I suggest you gather your own interpretation from the Bible and allow the Holy Spirit to guide you personally.  I believe that sometimes He will tell us to do the same thing, and other times He gives us different directives.  Don’t get mad.  Just be obedient. Heed what He tells YOU to do.  PERIOD.]

Nonetheless, I do like a lil bit o’ wine.  Though, TBH, I don’t drink it or anything else very much. When I do purchase it, it always ends up lining my refrigerator door….for months…like 6 or more…Gasp.  I know. My vino friendly friends would be aghast. But I digress….when I do chose to indulge red wines are my preferred go toos.   I have other specific few go toos that are a must or its a bust for me when I want to wet my whistle with adult beverages.  I passionately love this one sour craft beer @3fonteinen, which I drink whenever I get it as a gift from my craft-beer fantastic, fanatic friend @bibbidi_bobbidi_brew.  And I’ll have one or two good Cadillac Margarita’s with a shot of Grand Marnier – like when I go out with friends – I mean when I used to go out with friends…which most recently, well is literally… never, anymore.

Anyhoo, I’d wager to say that I’m not really the typical drinker type, if there is such a thing. And I’m far from being in the space where I need to lean on the scripture to make it ok for me to indulge in a glass.  So, I was not really sure why the Spirit drew me to this scripture.  Nevertheless, I found myself lead by the Spirit to read John chapter 2 this morning. As I read it, I was definitely intrigued but I was not that interested.  I mean, Jesus turned water into wine.  Its a great story and all, but I don’t need a drink right now Lord, I need a miracle.  In fact, I need many more of your miracles.  I’m praying without ceasing, expecting and prepping for some big things in the spirit Lord.  So, wine?  Just not there.  Don’t really care about it.

Yet, as I was reading, I began to think that maybe, just maybe, this scripture wasn’t really just about Jesus’s first miracle, or being an exasperated son to a braggy, overzealous mother; or even really about whether Christ-like-ians should or could drink the devil’s brew.  Today I felt I heard that it was about something deeper.  Something more profound.  Something a bit more life altering than whether one should have merlot, zima, or water with your din din.

In John Chapter 2, your boy Jesus Cristo (said with a Mexican enunciation) and his homies are chilling at a party. Whoop Whoop!  Jesus and the crew are trying to enjoy themselves and have a good time, but the drank runs out!  So of course Jesus’ mama immediately turns to him and puts him on blast.  ‘They don’t have any wine’, she said!  Jesus is like, why you looking at me, its not time for all that moms!  Still, the ever obedient son, Jesus makes sure the party continues with some fresh, exquisite tasting wine…

Here is where the Holy Spirit begins to get louder so that he can change my perception of this scripture.  While I have only ever read this bit, as permission to kick it – within reason – this time around the Holy Spirit had me focus in on John 2, verse. 9- 11.

Now the headwaiter did not know where it had come from, but the servants who had drawn the water knew. As the headwaiter tasted the water that had become wine, he calls the bridegroom 10 and says to him, “Everyone brings out the good wine first, and whenever they are drunk, then the worse. But you’ve reserved the good wine until now!” 

Here the Spirit nudged me in my spirit and said, most people bring out their best first.  This is true in a host of things.  For example, most people you meet will introduce you to their spokesperson.  Their ideal image of themselves shows up, and highlights to you their best traits and funniest characteristics.  Most people these days adhere to this first impression bit, so they will always put their best foot forward…But you do not meet the actual person – the real person – until months or even years down the line.

But the Holy Spirit whispered, the Lord has reserved his best for last!  You are a part of his best!  The Spirit shared that His end time warriors will be like nothing this world has ever seen.  For a long time, I believed that I was the only one who thought that we are in the end of the end times, but I keep hearing God’s apostles and prophets speaking this truth in agreement now.  By the Spirit, I also believe that God is saying that the best of his chosen people will be revealed in this hour.  That he will use regular people to do great and wonderful exploits for him.

Think about water.  While it is a life giving source, a lot of people don’t care about water, nor drink enough of it.  Most people would pass up a drink of water for a soda, chia or coffee, let alone for a glass of bubbly or wine. They want something with flavor, something that jumps off the tongue, something – anything pleasurable – as long as it is not as boring as water!

It is similar with God’s people. A lot of people think that Christ-like-ians live boring, limited, prudish, laborious, uneventful lives.  For Christians who actively gird themselves up in God’s word, who war for God’s promises by standing on the word of God, and having great expectations due to God’s desire for their lives to be more abundant and full….this of course is NOT true; but the world may still see us as average, less than successful, silly underachievers living beneath our potential.  Yet, the Spirit says that the Lord will turn what the world sees as undesirable water into the best of the best wine.

What I have to share with the world, what His church has to release into the current atmosphere; it will be so tasty to the this thirsting, hurting and dying generation that they will suck it down like the tastiest vino available.

11 Yeshua did this, the first of the signs, in Cana of the Galilee—He revealed His glory, and His disciples believed in Him.

Considering that this was Christ’s first miracle, the first revelation of His Glory and the first sign that His followers saw to believe in Him, I sense that it has relevance in this specific day and age.  Jesus turned water into wine.  Meaning, He got it crunk!  Now, in the end of the end times, he is preparing to do the same but on a whole n’other level!  This new wine will blow the world’s mind!!!  If this sign caused his followers to believe in ancient times, this next level water to wine sign, will most certainly do even more.

Understanding this, led me next to think upon the scripture Luke 10:2, “The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Therefore, beg the Lord of the harvest to send out workers into His harvest.”

If there are folks out there like me, then the enemy has kept you weighed down in the past by convincing you that your sound, your gifting DOES NOT REALLY MATTER TO ANYONE.  No one will really need it or will miss it, if I am not obedient to what the Lord is asking me to do. If I do this, but not that….it will be ok, He will raise someone else up to do it, all will be well. And that may be true, but all will NOT be well with me!   And if you are being or have been disobedient, then it will NOT be well with you! I am starting to believe that the intense depression and anxiety that crippled my life for years was a direct consequence for my disobedience to God’s call.

I was praying to God for His will to be done in my life, praying for my purpose to be revealed and then when I finally received it in my heart, when I clearly HEARD FROM GOD…I remember telling God…um, yeaaaaaah….NO!  I want to do your will Father, but I am not doing that! Give me something else.  I would tell God that!  I thank God for His grace and mercy for not striking me dead in my disobedience!  PRAISE GOD!!! Still I would tell God, I’m not telling them that!  I don’t want to share that.  I want to help hurting and broken people Lord, but NOT BY SHARING MY HURT AND BROKEN STORY!  There has got to be another way! I’ll serve anywhere else!  I just can’t do that!

Who does that! Who has the nerve to tell God NO, after begging to hear Him!  O-0…Some of what fueled my disobedience came from past hurt – not that this is a valid reason to be disobedient, it was just my excuse – and maybe a little bit of anger at God.  I’ve lost so much….why would you want me to share that.  Some of it was fear of man, some of it came from pride….I did not want to see pity on not a single person’s face.  I don’t want them to judge me.  I don’t want them to cry with me or for me.  I DON’T WANT TO SHARE BECAUSE I DON’T WANT THEM TO KNOW!   I wanted to hide, to keep myself from others, incorrectly thinking that if I did, I could protect myself from further hurt and pain.  That was and still is a lie from the pit of hell.  Not stepping out and sharing the word of my testimony, not only hindered me from walking in being a TRUE OVERCOMER, but also gave the enemy place and a legal right to attack me. (Eph 4:27)  What it did NOT do was keep me from further hurt of pain.

Still, I thought, what can I do? Little ol’ me. How can I do one thing to change the tide? Especially because there are sooooo mannnnnnyyyy to be saved, and soooo many others to be helped.  Brothers and sisters, I beseech you, listen to me now!  This is another lie from the pit of hell, leaning hard on your lack of self esteem, to keep others bound!  You may be FINALLY getting your boat right-side up, finally be able to breathe, but if your brother is still sinking, then YOUR WORK IS NOT DONE!  If the unsaved still abound, YOUR WORK IS NOT DONE! If there are others where you came from still drowning in hell, struggling with what you have finally overcome, then YOUR WORK IS NOT DONE!!!

Remember, do not get caught up in what you are doing, or what you can do – in your own strength or power.  It matters not, if the audience the Lord has placed before you is 1, or if there are so many before you that they look like a sea…with God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!!! (Matthew 19:23-30)  By the power of the Spirit, things change.  Mountains move, the dead come to live, the sick are healed.  Not by our power, not by our effort, but by the Spirit of the living God. (Zechariah 4:6)

REMEMBER, if Christ can turn normal tasting water into a powerful celebratory tool, in ancient times, how much more can he do with our simple tasting water.  Us pouring ourselves out (our gifts, our song, our love, our helps, our hospitality, our peace, our joy, our smile, our service) before the Lord daily, carrying our cross, going to the godless – touching, praying, healing them, speaking peace over them and their lives – showing them Christ and then telling them of the one who all this healing, wholeness and peace comes from.  Think about how the Lord Jesus Christ, can use that water and just watch Him turn it into the most glorious tasting wine that edifies the body of Christ, as well as expands it!  In Jesus name, amen amen amen.


SIDENOTE: After reading all of chapter two of John, I decided to do a little research, to delve into the word a bit where the Spirit lead me.  The following are the notes I researched from the web and scribbled that will hopefully help you, and if nothing else will help me to organize and document my thoughts and some of the Holy Spirit’s leading to be chewed upon more now or later….

Snippit’s from Concordance, and


John 2:1 On the third day, there was a wedding at Cana in the Galilee. (TLV -Tree of Life Version)


First thing of note, was that this wedding happened on the 3rd day in whatever month and year it was.  Today was also the 3rd.  There are no coincidences in the Lord.  Let that sink in.

3, is the number of divine wholeness, completeness or fulfillment and perfection.  The Trinity – the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost (or Spirit), lends to how significant the number three is.  3 symbolizes growth and multiplication, expansion and expression. 3 is the first of four spiritually perfect numerals: 3, 7,10,12.   There are 27 books of the new testament and mathmaticly breaks down to 3x3x3, or completeness to the 3rd power.  Did I mention that three has been my favorite number for over two decades? Hmmm…

There were 3 disciples at Gethsemane (possibly representations of light, love, and life – though not sure according to who…).  Jesus asked Peter if he loved Christ 3 different times.  Suggesting that Christ may have been trying to tap into 3 levels of our consciousness; the conscious mind, the superconscious mind and the subconscious mind.  (Maybe if these are in agreement, then Christ’s will can prevail for our life).

Jesus’ life is story of 3’s.  He was given 3 gifts after his birth.  He started his ministry at the age of 33.  He raised 3 people from the dead. He prayed in Gethsemane 3x’s before his arrest, He was denied 3x’s, He was hung at the 3rd hour of the day (nine am) and died at the ninth hour (3pm). 3 hours of darkness covered the land while Jesus suffered on the cross for 3 hours, from the sixth to the ninth hour.  He was hung in a grouping of 3 with the thieves.  Jesus died and rose after 3 full days and 3 full nights.

There are 3 major feast: the Tabernacle, Weeks and of the Unleavened Bread.  Jonah was in the belly of the whale for 3 days…(sidenote: was it a 3 day trek, or so he would have 3 days of fasting)… The second Trinity was the family unit, Adam, Eve and child. The 3rd Trinity: the body, the spirit, and the soul. The fourth Trinity: the 3 divisions of consciousness mentioned above (and in the new testament).  There are 3 sides to Jesus’ shepherd identity; the Good Shepherd, the Chief Shepherd, and the Great Shepherd. God addresses Jesus and his believers 3x’s. There were 3 righteous patriarchs before the flood; Able, Enoch, and Noah. After the flood, the righteous father’s were Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob (Israel).

3 people see Jesus’ transfiguration on the Mount Hermon; John, Peter and James. Paul quotes 3 greek poets and visits God’s throne in the 3rd heaven (2 cor. 12:2-4). 3 words only, appear in the scripture one time; Reverend (Psalm 111:9), Eternity (Isaiah 57:15), and grandmother (2 tim1:5). 3 people were allowed to ask God anything: King Solomon (1 kings 3:5), Ahaz (Isaiah 7:11), Jesus Christ (Psalm2:9). 3 gifts were given to Israel by God: His law, a land of Inheritance, and Their Calling.